Welcome to the first episode of Rebelliously Tiny, a podcast where each week a special guest helps artist Ambivalently Yours respond to one of the thousands of personal questions she’s received on social media.

Here’s this week’s question: “I'm at the point in my life where I have to absolutely grow up. Yet I don't know where I want to go or what I want to do. And the thought of the future terrifies me because I'm expected to be all sorted already but how am I supposed to when I don't even know what I want myself? I just feel like I can’t breathe- the pressure is overwhelming and I wish I knew what to do with my life as it moves on forward. I wanna be happy with my long term decisions, I just don't want to make them right now.”

This week we introduce Co-Producer Hannah McCasland, who worked behind the scenes with Ambivalently Yours to help put this podcast together. While researching questions to use on the show, one of them in particular resonated with Hannah and how she was feeling at the time, as a student about to graduate from college and step out into an uncertain future. In this episode, we talk about the pressures of decision-making, talking to your family about your plans, and how different privileges and identities can play into these issues. We also discuss Ambivalently Yours’ artistic career and try to figure out how to reconcile our passions with our practical circumstances.

A podcast by Ambivalently Yours
Co-produced by Hannah McCasland
Recorded at (with their technical and financial support) Oboro Arist-Run Center in Montreal
Technical support: Stéphane Claude
Music: Greg Barkley

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Welcome to Rebelliously Tiny, a podcast about the subtle emotions that draw us together. For the last five years, artist Ambivalently Yours has been exploring her ambivalence and feminist questions by posting pink drawings on her Tumblr blog. Eventually, people started responding to the work by sharing their personal stories and asking her for advice, often anonymously. Since Ambivalently Yours felt in no way qualified to tell anyone what to do, she began answering these messages with ambivalent drawings. Today, she has over 1000 messages waiting in her inbox, and has decided to ask for a little help responding to them. Each episode of this podcast will focus on one question, which Ambivalently Yours will discuss with someone she admires and trusts. Their goal will not be to provide answers, but to explore the tender emotions we are often told are unimportant, while highlighting the value of talking to each other instead of about each other. Each episode will also feature a drawing inspired by both the initial question and the conversation it sparked. In a world that teaches us that strength is loud, harsh and masculine, this is a place for those of us whose struggle is both impossibly large and rebelliously tiny. 

A podcast by Ambivalently Yours
Co-produced by Hannah McCasland
Recorded at (with their technical and financial support) Oboro Arist-Run Center in Montreal
Technical support: Stéphane Claude
Music: Greg Barkley

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